Mei Gongqing 93

Chapter 93: Promise to Self

Chen Rong did not look up during this entire time.

Her hands clasped together under her wide sleeves while her heart was sent on a tumbling ride.

She didn’t know what else to do.

Was this the kind of ending she were to receive after two lifetimes of struggle and strife?

But because she had lived twice, Chen Rong knew that if her father and brother had been reliable, she wouldn’t have ended up that way in her previous life.

Whether in her last life or this life, whether she had come to a dead end or been pushed to a corner, she had never once thought of leaving her clan. Firstly, she was no different from everyone else in that the notion of kinship had been deeply rooted in her. Secondly, without a clan’s protection in these troubled times, she would be robbed destitute or sold into slavery in a matter of seconds no matter how much wealth she possessed.

On her trip south with the Wang family, innumerable nobles had been killed or sent to ruination. Even imperial consorts had been abducted by human traffickers, their safety unknown till this day.

Thinking awhile, Chen Rong bitterly smiled: Never mind, Chen Rong, stop fighting it!

Chen Yuan chuckled to see Chen Rong in silence. He stroked his beard and said, “Don’t be too happy. Lang’ya Wang Qi is a prized man even amongst the princesses. Even if you became his honored concubine, you would still sit below his wife. You’re too young to know that family is one’s sole support in this world.”

When he got to “sole,” there was an extra emphasis in his voice.

Chen Rong’s head remained bowed.

Chen Yuan laughed, thinking that she was feeling abashed. He then nicely said, “Ah Rong, it had been the Nan’yang Prince’s aggression that forced me to send you to him. Have you held a grudge against me because of that?”

Here, he leaned forward and attentively watched her.

Chen Rong kept her head down. A good while later, she weakly uttered between her teeth: “I dare not.”

Chen Yuan did not detect anything unusual and thus kept on smiling. On the other hand, Lady Li mistrustfully looked back to appraise the silent and dutiful Chen Rong.

Chen Yuan raised his head and looked out at the sun. He then waved at Chen Rong and said, “You may leave. You’ll have preparations to make.”

Chen Rong slowly stood up at his words.

She had barely gotten to her feet when footsteps sounded outside.

Before long, an unsteady and wheezing voice called in, “Master, we’re back.”

Hearing this voice, Chen Yuan rose and went out to meet them. “Why have you returned so soon? Did you not see Wang Yi?”

Chen Rong paused upon hearing Wang Yi’s name after she had given Lady Ruan and Lady Li curtsies and was ready to leave.

She wasn’t the only one; even Lady Ruan and Lady Li anxiously stood up. They rushed from their seats to the steps.

Down the steps were a dozen strapping servants. Standing in front was one about thirty years old, with pale skin and delicate features. One could tell he was an articulate speaker.

Nevertheless, he had his head bowed at this time while looking rather hesitant.

Anxious, Chen Yuan angrily yelled, “What happened? Tell me.”

The servant dithered before softly saying: “I’m afraid to.”

Chen Yuan’s heart sank. He stared at the servant and warily asked, “Did Wang Yi say something foul?”

Seeing the servant shaking his head, he sighed in relief and impatiently said, “So what happened, anyway? Just tell me the truth.”


The servant gave him a ceremony and began to haltingly speak: “We followed your instructions and brought gifts to the Wang estate. We went in from the main entrance and presented our card, asking to see Sir Wang Yi.”

At this juncture, he looked up at Chen Yuan before quietly continuing: “No sooner had the gatekeeper taken our card than Wang Qilang’s carriage arrived. When he saw us, he approached and made inquiry.”

The servant’s voice softened to a stammer. “After we informed him, Wang Hong wanted us to go back, with a message he said to tell you.”

At this time, Chen Yuan’s heart had completely sunk.

He turned to glance at Chen Rong and inwardly thought: Perhaps Wang Hong has never liked this lass Ah Rong? What a useless piece of trash. What is the point of those seductive looks when she cannot even snare a man!

The servant stopped speaking when he saw Chen Yuan looking back.

After Chen Yuan had callously glared at the dutiful-looking Chen Rong, he turned around and yelled, “And what did he say? What are you freezing there for? Why aren’t you telling me?”

The servant shrank away at his rage and repeatedly said “aye.”

Once he had waited for Chen Yuan’s barking to stop, he stammered: “T-this is what Wang Hong said: Are you giving a daughter’s hand in marriage? Or are you selling your daughter for an office? How can we allow this virtuous woman to suffer thus an insult, when she had lived and died for her friends?”

Silence all around. Read at h@mster 428.

Chen Yuan was also at a loss for words.

He stared at the servant, momentarily unable to believe his ears. His face was beginning to blanch. “W-what did you say?”

Seeing him thus, the servant stopped speaking and dropped to his knees.

In just seconds, Chen Yuan’s face turned even whiter.

He was still staring at the servant, mumbling in disbelief: “Impossible! Everyone says Wang Hong is gentle and refined. He’d never injure others with harsh words like this…”

His voice failed to sound at this point.

Chen Rong was also made speechless.

However, she was relaxed and full of glee though she was wordless. When she saw Chen Yuan’s pretentious face growing increasingly paler with even shades of blue, she picked up her pace and swiftly disappeared from the courtyard.

As soon as she left the gate, Chen Rong couldn’t help herself from burtsing into laugher. Quickly enough, she covered her mouth and, with her head lowered, hurried back home.

Soon, Chen Rong entered her courtyard. Stolen from 824 retsmah

Nurse Ping hastily went up to her when she saw her come in. She suddenly stopped.

All she saw was Chen Rong flinging her sleeves in laughter.

Her laugh was so loud, clear, free and pleasant!

The nurse hadn’t heard such laughter in a long time.

She was surprised at first, then quickly followed suit in the merry action.

Chen Rong covered her mouth, madly laughing for a while. She eventually clutched her stomach and gave a cry. Nurse Ping quickly stepped over to caress her.

Chen Rong leaned into her nurse while she continued to double over with laughter.

It took quite some time before her laughter finally ceased. Nurse Ping laughed, “What’s going on? Why are you in such a good mood today?”

Chen Rong crinkled her eyes in delight and gazed toward Lady Ruan’s courtyard. She moved closer toward her servants, whispering: “Chen Yuan had just gotten rebuked by Wang Qilang!”

A very stern rebuke,” she solemnly informed them. “Haha, I’m not sure if he can withstand Wang Qilang’s rebuke or not!”

Seeing the bewilderment on her servants’ faces, she did not want to say more. She pushed Nurse Ping away and bounced back to her room.

Skipping and singing all the while.

Last time, Chen Sanlang had gotten himself humiliated by one of the scholars when he was in a rush to come with her to the gathering. As a result, he had been holed up at home till now, too afraid to even go out with his scroundrel friends.

It was so bad that Chen Yuan had started to prepare farmland and stores for him in Jiankang. He was to quit the literati circle and buy a small title or live as a tradesman.

There wasn’t any other way. They were disparaging words that could destroy a person’s life!

It was now Chen Yuan’s turn.

What kind of consequences would come of Wang Qilang’s disparaging words? Chen Rong raised her head in anticipation.

She got her answer the next day. In the evening, Chen Gongrang confined Chen Yuan to the ancestral temple and officially revoked his inheritance. If Chen Gongrang were to pass away at this very moment, the successor of the Chen House in Nan’yang would be the tradesman-born Chen Shu.

Unfortunately, such was the extent of Chen Yuan’s loss. Having been engrossed in obtaining an office title, he had long had the reputation of an ill-educated and vulgar man among the literati.

Thus, Wang Hong’s rebuke now caused him to receive even more pointing and supercilious look.

Several days passed by in the blink of an eye; it was presently well into winter.

In the morning on this day, Chen Rong tilted her head to look outside as she asked in surprise: “Why is it so bright?”

Nurse Ping carried a basin of steaming water in. She twisted the towel as she laughingly answered, “It’s snowing, miss!”

There’s snow?” exclaimed Chen Rong.

Nurse Ping crinkled her eyes into a kind smile. “Aye, that’s right, it’s snowing quite heavily, too. What great news.”

Her voice quivered with emotion.

Chen Rong was no different. Stolen from 824 retsmah

They couldn’t help it. The city had been waiting for this snowfall for far too long.

The snow’s descent meant that the Hu would not be progressing south! One only wished this snow could continue to fall, forever and ever.

Chen Rong tilted her face so that her nurse could wipe it more easily. She listened to the waves of cheers outside and murmured: “It’s snowing. It’s really snowing.”

She knew perfectly well that it would be snowing at this time, but the tense atmosphere in the city was infectious enough to unnerve her. Only until the snow fell did she heave in relief.

Nurse Ping was apparently thrilled. While preparing blue salt for Chen Rong’s washing, she looked toward Chen Wei’s courtyard and whispered, “Miss, I heard sobbing last night. Ah Wei was crying for nearly an hour.”

Chen Rong smiled, a hint of delight flashed in her eyes.

After she rinsed her mouth, her nurse again handed her a hot towel and lamented, “It would be great if Chen Gongrang ordered to remove master Chen Yuan’s guardianship of you. Goodness, you’ve offended the entire family this time. I even heard Chen Wei say how she wished she could kill you.”

Chen Rong slowly withdrew her smile.

She dropped her gaze and sneered, “It can’t be helped.”

Nurse Ping did not answer.

After she finished washing, Chen Rong went to the door and gave it a push.

As the door opened, a wave of biting cold rushed into the room. At the same time, white snow upon white snow came into view.

Watching the world that had been dyed pristine, Chen Rong laughingly remarked, “How much it’s snowing.”

Nurse Ping laughed along hearing her pleasantly talk about the snow.

Chen Rong raised her small face to feel the piercing air blowing at her. It was so cold that she thought her nostrils might freeze with each breath she took.

She looked at a brown mound peeking under the whiteness in front of her, along with a tree trunk that had accumulated a thick layer of snow, and thought to herself: Yes, I’ve offended their entire family, but I reckon Chen Gongrang will protect me. He is the type to look at the big picture and, knowing that both Ran Min and Wang Hong are interested in me, he will never allow anybody to hurt me.

She felt more assured at this thought .

The heavy snowfall sent Nan’yang into a tizzy.

All of a sudden, cheers and reed music filled the streets. Young men and women at this time ran loose like wild horses, indulging themselves all across the city.

Unlike Chen Wei who did not leave her home, Chen Rong’s courtyard was filled every day with servants from various estates who came to seek her audience and invite her to attend their banquets.

Nonetheless, Chen Rong declined them all no matter who came to ask. She knew she didn’t have much interpersonal skill. Going to these dinners would not gain her fame, but would instead make a fool out of herself.

What Chen Rong obtained in her two lives was the understanding of herself. She knew she wasn’t smart; and that she was full of faults. Each day, what she could think of was how to find in-laws that would not shun her, a family that had no complicated internal strife so that she could be left to her prosperous life.

But even something so simple was getting farther and farther from her reach…

At this point in her train of thoughts, Chen Rong blew warm breath at the snow-covered screen and called without turning around, “Nurse.”

A burst of rapid footsteps was followed shortly by Nurse Ping’s appearance. “What is it?” she laughed.

Chen Rong stared at the gradually melting snowflakes. Through the sparkling crystallites, she coud almost see the lofty handsome face as well as the wounded expression as he left that day.

Unconsciously, she pressed a hand on her chest.

She bit her lips while softly saying: “Can you prepare a card for me? I want to go see him.”

Him?” Nurse Ping asked in surprise. “Whom, miss?”

Chen Rong stammered, “Wang Qilang. Last time he told Chen Yuan that I’m a ‘virtuous woman who lives and dies for my friends.’ I ought to make a visit and express my gratitude.”

Nurse Ping did not speak for a while. Then, she mumbled: “I’d rather he takes you as an honored concubine.” She looked at Chen Rong, saying sadly: “Miss, not everyone can be Wang Qilang’s honored concubine even if she wishes for it! He’s vexed at the moment, yet you want to go thank him?”

Chen Rong lowered her eyes. “Even if I were to become a courtier or a savant one day, I’d always be a concubine,” she coldly said. “Nurse, I’ve made a promise to myself that I would live like a human this time! As a woman, my fate is solely dependant on my marriage. Come what may, I want to be married to a worthy man and have a dignified life. I won’t lose again, nurse!”

After some silence, the nurse sighed and quizzically asked, “Why do you say you won’t lose again?”

Chen Rong stiffened. At long last, she whispered back, “You misheard me.” For her tone was somber, the nurse did not continue to ask.

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41 thoughts on “Mei Gongqing 93

  1. thanks a lot—-!
    lol, i saw this on my wordpress page like, 4 minutes after it was updated on the page/uploaded! ahaha! -screams excitedly- it’s like, after 1.30am here lol, and i’m high from getting to read the chapter! this is going to be a pretty long comment because i have thoughts and feelings—!

    ah—! i’m so glad! wang qilang, you did excellently! wonderful! i love that he specifically mentioned chen rong’s good quality while he admonished those people that were sent by chen yuan! yes, yes–! oh, so that’s what happened to sanlang? pfft, who cares! but he deserves it! well now! excellent, excellent! chen yuan finally got his just desserts! his inheritance revoked, and he no longer has a future! nice—! and his family is also affected! hmph, that chen wei deserves it—! so satisfying that chen yuan, particularly, has suffered—!

    heh—i didn’t know that snow had such a significance to people of those times, though it makes perfect sense.
    well, yes, chen gongrang, as someone who (unknowingly) owes your life to chen rong, you’d better make sure that you treat chen rong well and take care of her! she shouldn’t be implicated in chen yuan’s punishment.

    well now, chen rong wants to visit qilang to express her gratitude? eh—I don’t know what to feel about that,hm…oh well -shrugs-

    i’m just going to take this chapter and roll in the happiness and satisfaction i get from it, yes—! -quickly faves chapter- now then, i’m off to reread the favourite parts of the chapter again—!

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    • ah, well, this is unrelated, and you didn’t mention anything, but i just thought i’d ask…
      how are you, hamster? is your recovery still going smoothly? i hope so! take care of yourself, ok—!


      • Thanks, I still have to be careful so that I don’t relapse but my recovery is otherwise going well. However, I now have to deal with annoying hospital bills. My HSA paid the entire amount that was billed way back in April, and my account shows that the check has been cashed, but the hospital keeps sending me threatening letters that I still need to pay or they will send the nonexistent debt to a collection agency 😤 I feel so harassed

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        • ok! be careful! a relapse would be terrible!
          -pats hamster on the back- eh—! what’s wrong with the admin in the hospital, really! such nonsense! hmph, how dare they! what an outrage—! how’s a person supposed to recover properly with all this pressure about a nonexistent debt! preposterous!

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        • I am sorry to hear that the hospital admin harrassing you while in the midst of recovery. Can you not print out a copy of what they had cashed out as a proof that you’ve paid them.


  2. Nggg!! Oh how I wish for her happiness in that cruel twisted unfair world… Thankies for the chappie..


  3. Haha. Well small minded person have limited future anyway. Getting to where he is now using his chen family is chen yuan greatest luck. And now it ends.


  4. She won’t lose again to an ill-fate. She won’t lose to despair. She won’t lose her self-worth. She knows it. 😀
    Also Chen Yuan’s part made me happy that karma comes around. Thank you for the chapter ~


  5. Thank you for the chapter!
    Looks like Chen Rong have up on being a wife…. But if she were to choose Sun Yang (that was his name, right?) she really could be one! CR, don’t look away from the nice man that claimed u first!!!!!

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  6. Wow. I was not expecting Chen Yuan to figuratively bite the dust so soon. Well, I don’t think anyone is complaining though.

    On the other hand, with the removal of our chief villian, I wonder what will happen next. CR’s luck always turns foul the moment things are looking up.


  7. Just wanted to point out that there’s a small typo “After she rinsed her mouth, her hurse again handed her a hot towel and lamented, “It would be great if Chen “


  8. What is an office title? I remember Chen Yuan talked to the prince about one though don’t really understand what it is.

    Hamster, hope the hospital bills get cleared up soon and that you’re back to your normal self!


    • If I had to equate office title in China back then to modern world, it would be along the lines of corporate titles. Correct me if I am wrong, but it’s something like getting a higher ranking or prestige (or privilege). Basically Chen Yuan wants to get an advantage in terms of allying himself with the Wang’s house and hopes to elevate his status. However, his plan backfired on him…much to his chagrin.


  9. I’m surprised when reading the imperial consorts were kidnapping by human trafficking. Probably I missed it, but did the novel has mentioned the name of the kingdom or dinasty who ruled in this chaos time?


  10. I am happy to know that you are doing well heath wise but sorry to hear about medical bill being screwed up by the hospital. Keep fighting and send prove of your payment to them. It might take awhile to clear it but you can do it. Thank you so much for translating this chapter so quickly. I love Wang Hong. He is the true man of honor. Chen Yuan deserved his punishment. Please take care of yourself and bless with good health. I enjoy and love your translation very much!!!

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  11. Thank you for this new chapter! Each time it feels like Christmas, though it ends on a cliffhanger note, making me looking forward eagerly for the next chapter.
    Can’t wait to have Wang Qilang/Chen Rong’s moments. I hope it will be sweet & peaceful as she seems to realize her feelings and WQ that she does not want to be a concubine.

    Hope your issues with the hospital bills will be cleared. As long as you have proof of payment, they cannot say anything. But dealing with all this administrative paperwork is such a pain, I understand how oppressive it can be, good luck!

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  12. Wang Hong’s behavior is really full of contradictions. He obviously likes Chen Rong and wants to treasure her especially after the Mo’Yang incident and he recognizes that Chen Rong is someone who deserves to be a legal wife and not merely a concubine but he can’t commit himself to marrying her (probably because of his pride and perceived superiority. I mean come on, the masses sings praises for the guy, its impossible to not be affected himself!). At the same time, he can’t let go of her and allow other men marry her.

    The guy should just man up and let go of his arrogance. Sooner or later it might bring him regret and heartache.

    I admit that I’m on the Wang Hong ship, but if he remains contradictory and ambiguous I might just jump to Ran Min’s. After all, despite the previous lifetime, in this lifetime, he has yet to commit any bullsh*t on Chen Rong. In fact, he wants to marry her because he recognizes her worth and doesn’t care about what other people thinks (which is a plus in my opinion. The people there are too superficial and vain).

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    • WH doesn’t perceive himself as being superior. Recall that he has told AR she isn’t a leaf and he isn’t a cloud. His and SY’s problem is that they are restricted by their family, a problem RM doesn’t have and so therefore can freely make a marriage offer to anyone he pleases.

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    • If I recall correctly its is implied that Ran Min doesn’t pay attention to Chen Rong due to the tumors around her and really does care about reputations


    • Tienes una mente cerrada. Eres demasiado feminista. Wang Hong no es arrogante, simplemente conoce su lugar, y él ni siquiera es el proximo jefe de su “rama” o lo que sea (¿cómo se supone que desafíe las reglas y la jerarquía social?), y no, la protagonista no es apta ‘aun’ para ser la esposa de Wang Hong por mucho que ella te guste.

      Concuerdo con tu comentario acerca de Ran Min. Él no ha hecho nada… La protagonista tiene demasiado rencor y odio hacia él.


  13. I don’t get it, several chapters back, Chen Rong dreamt about Ran Min coming back for her and holding her in his arms when she was dying… Did that really happen? Or was it a dream?

    I know how this novel ends, but I’m just curious how many chapters are there still? Even though I know who she ends up with, I still don’t ship her with the male lead since he’s… Weak? He should just man up.

    I guess that’s why I asked how many chapters remain. I want to know how long their suffering will go through before he ‘mans up’.


  14. I’ve read the postings twice and still can’t get enough of AR, WH, and RM. Big thanks to you Hamster for your generous time in translating. Stay healthy!

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