I have the worst habit of distracting myself from what I need to do >_< So… I read the entire Zhong Zi in two nights (skimming here and there) and OMG, this story breaks my heart~
It’s about a little girl who goes to fairyland in order to learn magic. But since she is born with what they call “Shaqi” or evil energy, no one wants to accept her as a student. Then of course she gets accepted by only the most awesomesauce fairy in all of fairyland… and doncha know it, love happened despite the social taboo.
I think I was sold the moment this happened:
Leaving Liu’he Hall, the surrounding expanse seems even larger. Several thousand students still stand waiting on the two sides. Everyone has heard of the news and wants to see which child it is that’s so fortunate. When Luo Yinfan steps out the door, all eyes look in their direction. Some were filled with envy, others with jealousy…
Luo Yinfan offers her his hand.
Zhong Zi is confused and doesn’t understand her teacher’s intention at first. At length she shyly wipes her hand onto her clothes and takes hold of that hand.
His hand is at just the right warmth, not too hot, not too cold. Like the person himself, soft and gentle.
The long white robe sweeps across the ground. With everyone’s eyes watching them, he leads the little girl away, slowly walking down each of the stone steps, and heads toward Zizhu Summit.
This moment stays with Zhong Zi for many years later. It carves into her mind like it has only happened yesterday. No matter how many lives she goes through, it is something she can never forget. But sadly by then, she is no longer the same little Zhong Zi whose hand he held and led away that day.
Needless to say I liked the perfect image Zhong Zi had of her teacher. He was going to be her sun and stars, her protection and love. NOPE.
I usually stay away from 虐 stories cuz mistreatment isn’t my kind of OTP kink, and although the nue in this story isn’t necessarily abusive (well unless you count the times he tries to kill her), it still has the sort of power imbalance and possessiveness that drives me bonkers. The saving grace to that, is that although they are so wrong in their effort to be right, you can sympathize with them for being two very misguided individuals. He’s spent centuries being a xian & believing in what he believes in, and she’s just an impressionable kid with an awkward guardian. And their effort to channelize their love was nothing short of a struggle. Sometimes I want to slap him silly for being such a hipocritical jerk. And how selfish he is for wanting to keep her on his terms i.e. only as his student, and even if she’s crippled. But I guess it makes his downfall more satisfying
More than the OTP, the author does such a great job making me care for her side characters. Never have I cried so much for non-male-leads. Not just 1, not 2, but friggin 4 or 5. Zhuo Hao is a damn playboy and I cry a river everytime he makes falling stars rain down for her. I mean, kdramas could milk some serious melo out of that Xiao Niangzi childhood story. Qinke is oddly kept in the shadow throughout but his unfailing faith is zomg$%#@lemmemarryyou. Wanjie, Mu’yu, even her shijie’s husband! And hmm, I find Wangyue kinda sexy lol.